Sunday, September 30, 2007

In other news

I'm really excited right now. I know what you're thinking "But JD, you're classes are teh lame, you spend a lot of your time working at two jobs that don't pay money, also you don't have a paying job, why the funk are you happy?" well I'll tell you, I'm moving, hopefully in the next couple of days... I can't believe so soon, but in my disbelief there is a tremendous amount of excitement and happiness. Now the act of moving itself it's not something to celebrate, not usually anyways, but the people I'm moving in with is the reason I'm so excited. I'm moving in with three of my closest friends and I couldn't be happier about it. As cheesy as it may sound, I look at all the time that I get to spend with my friends like a sunset, as beautiful as it is fleeting. When I get to live with the people that make those sunsets so beautiful, it makes the night last that much longer. Eventually there will be a new day, but for now I'm going to enjoy all the beauty that my friends bring to my life, and soak up as many rays as I can.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

How True

Awesome CAD.

Really?

Over at CNN.com they say that Sarah Silverman is taking crap for her Britney Spears jokes. It's been said that celebrities deserve to be left alone... or something like that. Everyone deserves their privacy, and it seems like Spears has been having one thing after another happen to her. I don't know where the line is, or anything like that. I do know that the jokes she told about Spears are incredibly subdued compared to the rest of her material, and it just seems like their are bigger fish to fry, but then again, we as a people seem to fry all the fish. I guess we can't spend all our time being noble and doing what's needed, or at least that's the level of complacency they the popular majority has accepted. I don't know, I feel bad for Spears, but at the same time, their are plenty of child bearing celebrities that manage to stay out of the public eye for the most part. Who knows, life is just a big mess anyways, I have other things to do, or rather other things I should be doing instead of putting my time into analyzing celebrities and the shit they go through. I'd like to end this post with a quote from Silverman's stand up show Jesus is Magic, "if life gives you aids, make lemonaids."

The Suck

If it looks like you're getting sucked in, it smells like you're getting sucked in, and it feels like you're getting sucked in, you're probably getting sucked in. I saw it coming a million miles away and I should have done something about it, I'm not stoked on the way I'm feeling, but at the same time I'm happy that I didn't totally reject it. Who knows, but I've been sucked in, that I know for sure. Welcome to the suck.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Stuck in the middle with... me

I'm tired, I want to go to bed, but I can't cause bed stuff is in the laundry, can't go downstairs to relax, Curt and the new GF are making out. Jay's gone off somewhere, Farmer and Opie are downstairs next to Curt and what's her face I'm sure. If only my imaginary friends hadn't moved to Australia when I was five. That could be some childhood thing too, what kid's imaginary friends leave them for another continent? I should look into this.

Another one in the books

Second band practice of JD and the Fuck People is now over. Went well, didn't have as much time to go crazy as last time, but still productive. It didn't help that I was really tired, or the fact that Jay and Curt were walking around us the whole time we were practicing, no fault of there's, just the time we picked. We've officially got one song, and an album cover, so that's something. So yeah, keep your radio dials tuned in for us, maybe give it a few weeks, but yeah, rawk.

Monday, September 24, 2007

Fuuuuuuuuck

I don't know if I've ever wanted to be so alone, I don't know if I've ever felt so lonely. A lot of things are kind of coming to a head right now, but it's always the things you don't see coming that knock you down. A couple of my friends were in a really bad car accident yesterday. They're all in a band called Oh My God! They've stayed at our house plenty of times while they were on tour, and they were on tour when the crashed. They had just recently played at Scene Metro Space, and Mac's Bar only a couple weeks ago. They were on their way to New York to meet with the guy that books bands for the Conan O'Brien show. They're all still alive, but the keyboard player smashed both his hands and probably won't be able to play again. Two of them are in critical condition in the hospital right now, and the guitar player broke both his legs. God damnit man... fuck... it's just a million and a half fucking things all piling on top of each other in a giant cluster fuck of shit. Here's to you Bish, Iggy, Billy, and Matt, and to a speedy recovery.

Friday, September 21, 2007

It's Friday night...

So it's Friday night, I haven't done anything fun or exciting. It was just like a normal day. There was an especially fun spot earlier in the afternoon, however fleeting it may have been. After that I cleaned, did homework, cooked... wrote some stuff I guess. Blah, I'm going to have to cram a lot into Saturday and Sunday. Oh yeah, tonight I tried making something new, and it ended up being one of the worst meals I've had in a long time.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

"Hey Jude" - The Beatles

Hey, Jude! Don't let her down
You have found her, now go and get her
Remember, to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better.

Quite the evening

Yesterday was something. It started very early in the AM coming home from St. Joseph County fair. Got back home, went to class, came home and tried to sleep but stupid roommates were doing whatever they do and I was getting really frustrated. Luckily I had "Wizard's First Rule", which I can read anytime and almost instantly get sucked into the book and away from the rest of my life. To my surprise, and a very pleasant surprise it was, my friends Kate and Heather popped by, originally to give me my bag from the night before and to drop off an apple (Thanks Heather :-D). Anyways, one thing led to another and we ended up getting a generous sampling of a couple different kinds of beer and taking it back to their place. You might be asking yourself "but JD... wasn't that a Tuesday night? did not all three of you have class the next day?" you would be correct in your thinking. All I know is Tuesday might not be the best party night, unless there's some kind of time warp and Tuesday becomes the day preceding Saturday and Sunday. Except for some worrying for my friend I did later that night it was a blast. I've thought about what those "priceless" moments really are. The moments that can't be bought, the moments that go as fast as they had come. Standing in my best friend's kitchen, drinking Dirty Bastard Ale and laughing so hard it hurts. I wouldn't trade those moments for the world. Those moments that keep your head above water, the moments that remind why you wade through all the shit life has to dish out. It's a beautiful thing :-D

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Lets hope it never comes to this

Here's an interesting article...

http://www.news.com.au/dailytelegraph/story/0,22049,22439156-5012895,00.html


... so a couple, in a bad marriage both decide to "cheat" on one another by joining an online dating site. They both join the same site, and end up chatting with one another without realizing who either one really is. They end up really liking each other, decide to meat up, and you can imagine their surprise. They end up getting divorced, which sucks I guess, but there's a quote in the story from the husband that got me thinking. The husband said "I still find it hard to believe that Sweetie, who wrote such wonderful things, is actually the same woman I married and who has not said a nice word to me for years." Holy crap is that depressing. He didn't say that she hadn't said anything nice for weeks, or months, he said YEARS! And he stuck around... is that love? or is it a desire for love? or merely a desire for attention? What a strange group we humans are.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

A note

A note to my brother: "GET A ROOM!"

Another update

I'm officially the new intern at AM 730 The Game. Sports radio channel, not exactly my element, but the guys I'm working with are really cool and they know their sports, holy shit do they know sports. I don't know if I'll ever have any air time, but I'm told some of my duties will include getting beer, and answering phones. Some might say "JD, this does not sound exciting" and I would say to them "No, you are wrong."

http://thegame730am.com/home.php

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Quite the day

Here are the house, everything is quiet now. Today was awesome. Dedric and I jammed for at least 6 hours, got a lot of great stuff recorded... we just might have a band... and a couple songs, so stay tuned for that. At first I was calling us The Detroit Two, but Dedric said he liked JD And The Fuck People more, so I guess that's what we are. I feel a little weird having my name in the title, but it should be awesome no matter what. I'm wicked tired, a little drunk, and I'm ready for bed. I kinda wish people were still at the house, but oh well. Curt is off with this one lady, and Jay is out doing whoever he's doing these days I'm sure. As I said before though, I'm tired, so I guess I'm going to go now. Peace be with you, whoever you may be, and whatever you may be doing.

Friday, September 14, 2007

Blabbity Bloobity

The roomy and I are about to go to a show down at Metro Space Scene Space of the Metro or something... whatever it is called and it should be awesome, I'll do a post about it later. Right now I just need to say that MooseJaw, the place that I've been trying and trying to get a job at is kinda annoying me, and I'll have more to say about that later to, but I have to get going, I just felt the need to blog. Anyways, Kabooooooooom!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

To Be Certain

I had a good day to be sure. I got a lot of reading done, a little bit of story writing. Finished my project in class today, teach really liked it, bonus. My editor at the paper wants me to do a restaurant review which is awesome. I got a big stack of work done so that I wouldn't be kicked out of my sociology class, and I only burned my dinner a little bit. I'm certainly not in a bad mood, I'm actually in a really good mood. I was watching a movie, decided I was falling asleep so I turned off the movie. As soon as I turned off the movie my brain went bananas, like it was waiting for me to stop watching the movie so it could talk to me or something. Either way it's almost 3am and I'm cleaning my room to some good ol' Rob Zombie. Everyone should check out his cover of "Brick House" by the way.

Tee Hee

I wish I was a big time reporter and had to do some story about Russia and crackers, to Vladamir Putin putting on a big party because then the headline for the story could be "Putin on the Ritz."

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Blah

It's time for bed.

Monday, September 10, 2007

Hazaa!

I've figured out what I want, in terms of like a relationship... thing, or something or other, thanks to a new movie coming out. I want someone to eat cheese with. The movie looks pretty funny and it just happens to be called "I Want Someone To Eat Cheese With" so go check it out, anyways, the indie comedies are usually way better. Eat Cheese With Trailer.

I'm in print!

I'll have more to say about this later since I'm in class right now, but today the review I wrote for "Hard Candy" was published in the LCC Lookout and I'm so happy right now. Of course I'm doing to be a dork and send copies to my family. Tee hee, big stupid grins a plenty for me. Hooray!

WTF Roommates

In my entire history of being a roommate to someone other than my parents I have never once used something that a roommate owned without asking first. My roommates however are not the same way. They eat my food, use my shampoo, use my laundry detergent and they almost never ask. One of my roommates, when I come home from the grocery store, often times will say "woah, I'm gonna have to help you with that" by which he means "I'm going to eat your food, mmmmmmmmmm." I get that you don't have a lot of extra money, neither do I, but at least fucking ask me. The other day I was doing laundry and I was about to add the fabric softener, and I noticed it was all watery... SERIOUSLY?! You cut my fabric softener with water?! You didn't think I would notice?! It just feels like a lack of respect... bah, whatever, I guess I have to choose where I put my energy, and putting it into fighting with my roommates about who used up my fabric softener really isn't worth it at this point, I've got bigger fish to fry.

Sunday, September 9, 2007

Here we go again...

Oh cruel world. It's a good thing nobody reads this. Although the lengths at which I document my own tragedy annoys me sometimes, I can only imagine what other people think... I actually know what they think, a couple have told me. I don't know if I'm going through some kind of mid-life crisis or something, but it seems like I should be in some kind of relationship right now. It seems like everyone, and I do mean everyone, that I hang out with has some kind of significant relationship, or is on the cusp of something serious. I want one of those. This is exactly what I was afraid of though. It's a dangerous thing to ever be in a desperate situation, but especially dangerous to be desperate for love. When you're desperate for love you start to blur the lines of what you really want to make those even half way interested fit into your expectations, or if you're already in a relationship you might use your energy burying your frustrations in the "all couples fight" folder and just move on, beating the already dead horse. It's a little unfortunate for me because all the girls I know, all the cool one's anyways are already in relationships or doing that whole "I need to be independent thing", but I must say I really like girls that like the "independent" thing, because that's what I like... but here I am saying I want to be in a relationship... stupid brain. With my second girlfriend Kim, I'll never be sure if I made the right decision. I was feeling a little overwhelmed with the amount of time we were spending together, we were practically living with one another. When I broke up with her, at first, it felt like a big weight had been lifted, like finally getting to the surface and taking a big breath after you'd been drowning in the ocean. I've missed on more than one occasion being with a person the genuinely liked me and wanted to spend time with me, but to be honest with ones self it's important to recognize that a person liking you and wanting to be with you all the time are not strong enough to build a relationship on. I'm really happy for my friend Dedric, he hasn't had a girlfriend for a while, which is no fault of his own, and he's found someone that he's sort of seeing or whatever and she seems pretty cool. My roommate Jay has a fuck buddy person thing, but he's seems to be investing more into the relationship that one would with a regular fuck buddy. I must say ladies, if you heard how he talks about you when you're not around I don't think you'd wanna be with him... well, I don't know, I've noticed some of my lady friends stay in relationships even though the dude treats them like shit, and I guess some girls think it's like a bad boy thing and that's "hot" or something. I guess I'm be a nice guy, and I hear that we finish last, so I'm not holding my breath, but at least I can say that I can last longer, hehe, that's not a very good joke. Sometimes I really hate being the nice guy. I've had girls hang out with me after they break up with their bad boy boyfriends, and they say things like "oh JD, you're such a nice guy, why don't I date guys like you" and I wonder the same god damn thing, and of course I sit their and be nice, then they find another "cool guy." It also sucks when you ask when of your lady friends if they think that other guys would be threatened by you and they just laugh. I guess I just need to be more confident or something... I hear that's kind of important. Whatever, I guess everybody finds somebody eventually... and if they don't they find a hetero life mate and start a magic tiger show in Vegas baby! (be careful about that tiger show though, sometime they maul you, then you die in a hospital a couple days later)

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Bags!

I'm so EMO right now it's ridiculous.

All The Kings Horses

I move up and down. Right now I feel lost. Lost in something I don't understand. I can't taste it, I can't see it, I can feel something, but I'm not really sure what I'm feeling. I've been wearing the girlfriend eyes, I seem to be looking, or hoping, or something. I've been telling myself that I don't want a girlfriend for a long time, three or four years now, oddly enough I've had three girlfriends in that time, and at the end of every relationship I've wanted to be in a relationship even less and less. One thing that I've thought of is "what's the common element in all these relationships?" it's me. I don't think there's anything horribly wrong with me. I can tell a few jokes, I love to make other people happy, I feel generous, but maybe I'm just not ready for a relationship. I love my friends, and I love the things we do together. Dating your friends hasn't gone as well as it seemed like it should. You think "we're friends already, she woman, me man, she have vagina, me have penis", and I know it's not all about sex, but it seems like all the relationships I've been in have just turned into friendships with sex... and I don't want that. I love sex, it's a blast, but for me, without meaning behind it, it's just two warm people bumping into each other long enough for one or both parties involved to experience mere moments of fleeting satisfaction. I'm jealous of my friends with the long term relationships. My friends Heather and Andy seem to be made for each other. My brother Paul and my sister in law couldn't be happier. I want that unconditional thing... I don't want to find out my girlfriend's boyfriend is back in town and "he's really changed", or that I have to leave all my friends to date her, or that I'm fundamentally flawed and she's been being nice to me these past couple of months, all situations ending with the relationship. I know my family loves me, and I know my friends love me, and I love all of them... but once, just fucking once, I want someone to hold, and when she says "I love you" it doesn't mean "I love you, for now" or "I'll love you until someone better comes along" or better yet "I"m just telling you I love you so I don't have to let you down and make you feel bad." I loved you.

Monday, September 3, 2007

A Fine Monkey

Oh the places I have gone. I got back a couple of hours ago from a wonderful weekend. I went with my best friends Heather, Andy, and Kate down to Colon, Michigan. I had such a great time getting away from the city and just taking a break from my life. There were jokes and meals a plenty. I managed to pet some horses, and do a couple cart wheels. It's a special thing to be able to have friends that you can burp in front of and 10 minutes later seriously discuss the meaning of it all... I love those guys. I suppose it's back to the grind as usual. Someday I'll get out of whatever this is, but for now I'll enjoy all of it while it lasts, and it's much easier to enjoy it all when you've got friends like mine.